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Why do people go to loneliness and darkness for a week, underground?
I have heard several times, that people go in a dark cave alone, where they stay for about a week, but have not understood why, whether they can think about their life in a better way, or have a lot of rest and sleep. Now I heard, that my good acquaintance, Margot, was in such a place. She has written an article from her experience, which I will add here with her kind consent. For a long time, Margot has been dealing with astrology, working on making birth cards for people, which are basically telling them everything about their life, character and tasks in this world, helping them make the right choices and understand, why everything is the way it is, in their lives. Margot has been engaged in a variety of spiritual practices and had come to the point, when she wanted to test herself in darkness and solitude. And it turns out, that such a ritual is not a holiday, but a big work and an ordeal. Firstly she had to fight with fear the whole time, the darkness kind of became alive. And secondly, they go there with the idea and the plan to constantly work with oneself, practicing different meditation exercises. As it was a complete darkness and there was nowhere to even look at, what time it was , Margot plaited one braid every day to try to figure out, when seven days would be over. How everything went exactly, can be read in her article, which follows now here and is also on her Facebook page, in estonian language and which I translated in english...
"The witches are afraid too, but the difference is, they have enough inner strength to overcome it"
How I spent 7 days in the woods, in a dark underground cave, alone.
The dark room ritual can be passed in a place in Estonia, called Leesoja, in primeval nature.
After arriving, the local witch led me in the forest, into the cave. The room was two meters underground. There was no long talk, some wise suggestions, and soon the door quickly closed after Thule and I was left alone in the cave. As long as the little candle was still burning, I placed my food and other stuff I needed in the room, to find the right things in the dark. Which later was`nt so easy, of course :). And then I extinguished the candle and started Time in complete darkness and silence, where there was no place for borders or time , there was just this moment.
It became clear to me immediately, why this ritual was considered to be the attempt of beginning of the road of Power. I had no more questions. I was filled with awe for the bigger power. What I experienced this week, is difficult to convey with words. Darkness comes from the beginning of the world. Darkness is a Force for me ... a big force. And Darkness is Alive. In the first hours it became clear, that I have two options, whether I pull myself together and find my inner strength, or the Darkness just destroys me. I had been in complete silence before, but I had no idea about darkness. The inner power, that began to grow from me, was physically strongly perceived, and how much I had that, surprised me.
In the dark, fears and joyful feelings are amplified. Fear grows very fast, just like joy. For the first few days, there was still plenty of activity in brain to deal with the day's events. It is incredible, how much this somebody can chatter there, it was like a club night for pensioners in my head. Since I had been trying to live the way, that I could follow my heart, and I had enough balance in the past, I could gradually begin to practice different spiritual practices in the darkness. When in the first days the fear of the power of the Darkness disappeared and we could coexist equally, it came up more and more from my subconscious. And the things, that swim out of the subconscious, can be more scary than the darkness itself. Whoever dares to meet with himself, will dare to live.
The more days went by, the more important information, clarity, and tips on my path came to me. It was good to recognize that many things in my life have been well chosen and right. However, dealing with various fears required attention and a very quick response from me. This workout gives you the ability to respond quickly to the negative in your everyday life, not to get stuck, if necessary cut through, or to look from side and separate yourself from your fears. Maybe also the courage to live life to the fullest.
As for the practical activities, eating was a joke in itself. I thought, I was smart and would take some canned food for a good comfortable meal. But ... first of all, I didn't understand, on what side I had the spoon in my hand, then how much food goes on the spoon and where will it eventually travel with that stuff. The fact, that the face was covered with the food, was normal at the beginning. Although, people are still capable of development ... so I became more proficient in eating in the dark, pouring water from a big canister, etc.
Regardless of the fact, that I am not tall, I was able to hit my head somewhere on the shelf or wall several times. And when I felt, that I was a champion of moving in the dark, I immediately got hit by a wall or bed. I ate 2 times less in the dark. By meditation, appetite disappeared at all. I tried to create a routine for myself, that when I thought, it was daytime, I would be awake and practicing, exercising. Although I had to check several times, whether my eyes were closed or open, because there was no difference, the picture was still the same. So I tried to sleep at night. The dreams were colorful and beautiful, and sometimes I saw, that I was climbing over a plank to watch the daylight :) What's more strange: when the eyes are really open already, the dream goes on. As I said, there is no difference if the eyes are closed or open. I discovered, that I have a filigree time sense. When I thought, that now 7 days should be over and that Thule would come to me or I had made a total miscalculation, then the bell behind the door ringed and I heard Thule pushing the snow from the hatch to open the door. In the meantime, it had been -21 degrees cold and a lot of snow came down :)
I came out of the narrow passageways back to the ground, and it was such a wonderful feeling, I felt like I'm alive.
I was like being born again, full of internal heat.
Would I do all this again? Possible :)
I like the Life that I Live!
Margot Veidemann https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=2284505201573689&id=1720299327994282
This is the link, that can be copied to go to her Facebook astrology page, which is actually in estonian language.