Is freedom your best ally or your worse enemy?

I have often been defined as a ‘free spirit’, because I do not like to be confined and I am at ease beyond the camp of any top-ruling frameworks.
And, yet, even in this definition I can experience the tension between authenticity and conformity, self-expression and compliance, personal responsibility and common good.
Why? Because if I owned this definition, I would use freedom to affirm my identity and my choices. Which is exactly what I am here to avoid. 
My freedom does not define me. My freedom does not define my choices.
My freedom involves the complete destruction of who I think I am and what I want, in order to see who I really am and what I yearn for. And to begin again.
This is not achieved through a feel-good journey. This is achieved through a feel-(very!)uncomfortable journey.
During this journey, there will be some turning points, where I will be again like a baby, completely naked, open, and surrendering.
Unlike a baby, however, I will cradle in my heart a purpose for my life, and one day I will know that living that purpose is the only way to live.
So, here there is just a choice to be made and a responsibility to be taken, the ones that initiate the journey:
‘Am I willing to commit to going through a challenging time where all my certitudes will dissipate, and to say a 100% ‘yes’ to whatever is there for me?’
This is my freedom.
What is yours? 
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